Today was a horrible day, or at least it ended up that way. I had a doctor's appointment today, figured it was just to get the blood drawn to check my anemia and kidney health and was feeling pretty good. Woke up way too early but just bullshitted on the computer, took my lovely breakfast of 8 and 1/2 pills and fell back to sleep for a bit. But I felt pretty good, walked up the (what feels like at the moment) really long ramp to the doctors instead of using a wheelchair and it tired me out a bit but I figured Nick is right and I should try to walk more. Then I got in the room with the nurse whose been over-seeing all this bullshit...

Apparently there's something wrong with my heart. Theres a bit of back flow from one area to another, I can't quite remember what she said. Nothing major she says, but that I should get a CAT scan and see a cardiologist. That and apparently I'm not able to fully inhale into my lungs and my breath is a bit short, even though it doesn't seem that way to me. At one point she had me walk around the hall twice and ok, but I've still been feeling a little weak while walking and that means I don't walk as fast as I normally would and here she is practically running me through the hall, or so it felt like to me.

So now I have two more appointments to make and it just seems like things just keep coming. I'm so scared that I'll end up back in the hospital for something worse, like surgery or something. I don't even know... I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing, taking all my pills, keeping up with appointments and everything. I dunno, life just sucks right now. And I'm done whining >.<

Wee fire-y egg! Since this one apparently takes forever to hatch I think I'll decide to post it where ever I can. *rubs eggie* Male vibes please, so I can give you the name I want without having to trade.

And random but MMMM FUDGE! *munches on some*